To be frank, I find myself a lousy person. A person that can never face my true emotions. Such a failure huh?
To me, you are like so important. But I didn’t say anything. Call me a coward. I never dare to face it.
你带我上天堂又推我下去
我拥抱着遗憾
坠落在天际
你带我上天堂又推我下去
不敢相信但你已决定
Perhaps, I have too much of grief and tears had already tried up.. Thus, none can start flowing out of my eyes anymore…
Goodbye, my love.
I have like get over it within like 5days?! crap. Perhaps, this is just a stupid CRUSH! 🙂
SAGITTARIUS – The Promiscuous One (November 22 to December 21)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offence forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.
Indeed. Please stay away from me when I am in a fucking bad mood. I loses my patience very easily and will not take any crap. I can be nice to everybody I meet but, if you show me shit, I will show you more real shit.
Goodbye.
又是发泄的时候了…
坦白说,有时候一些朋友的言语或作息令我非常发指. 或许因为他们都是父母亲的掌上明珠. 因此他们都养成了一些让我非常不喜欢的习惯.
我承认我并不是一个非常好的人.或许许多读者会抗议我所要表达的.但这是我的想法. 如果无意间得罪了你们,请不要把它放在心上.
一些朋友,因为跟你很要好,也因为跟你很要好,所以在言语方面会不经意伤害或得罪他人.
Last edited by rongping on August 23, 2010 at 1:38 am
After that I do not know what I want to write after 4months plus.
So, how have my 2010 been? Met a lot of people from various places. 2010 have not been a good year for me. I have been bumping around without a proper job for almost 3/4 of the year. Crap huh?
2010 have also been a year that I seriously found a job that I so loved but yet, I have to give up due to the money issue.
2010 have been a year that I made lots of new friends.
First, started my life at this fucking irritating company, IP Mirror. I seriously think the management there have some brain issue. Especially that HANTU! FUCK that HANTU! oops! I mean, nobody would actually want to FUCK her! Never ever in my life, I have people doubting my ability. I have been nice enough for not making you throw face, HANTU. So, STOP BACKSTABBING ME! And as for the 2 sister bosses, the big one is another fucking irritating aunty with serious PMS. When BJ tendered, that aunty still warned her that she can be friends with Jackson and the rest but never VICTORIA. Because I am not a GOOD FRIEND! Oh Fuck YOU Bitch! Oh oh oh!! There is also this woman, that loves to show off her UNDERWEAR to guys! Seducing almost all the guys in the office and everybody got so scared of her! LOL!
It is getting more and more vulgar. I should stop and start mentioning about the good people. LOL! Yeap. The crazy gang. Huifang, Iris, Elisha, BJ, Debbie, Juanhao, Kyan, Andhy, Hanwee….
Next job, Camp Instructor at Camp High Achievers. The job that I seriously love. In the midst of this job, I did lost my passion due to various reasons. Knowing different cliques and people kind of blurred my vision. As some people might know, I actually dislike kids. Because they are noisy and irritating. However, over at camps, I learnt how to love them more and understand them more. Of course there are some that seriously makes me want to slap them, but they are all real nice kids. I would not dare to say I change their life, but I would say I have tried to make a difference in their life. I am glad that I ended my last assignment over at Camp HA with the kids from GESS. They are really a bunch of really interesting students. 🙂
The friends I made at CampHA are so interesting too. I get to see the true faces of people. How fake a person can be. How true a person can be too. A person to mention, Carissa. I heard stories about her when I first saw her. Indeed, being a lousy person, I actually stereotype her as someone that is like the stories told to me. However, after knowing her, I see the true friendliness in her and the true self that she showed. 🙂
Bigtootz and Xiaotootz! Kevin and Suefei! These two of them, seriously, I have no idea on why we can click so well. Fate brought the 3 of us together forming the tootz family? LOL! The 2 that gave me a funny surprise birthday celebration at my void deck. Although it is a bit fail, but the thought that counts okay!
JW42. This is a clique that is full of activities. At times, me and JX will refer them as “TY’s that clique of JW42 friends” to others, and will get “scolded” from them saying now we want to draw lines! LOL! They are a bunch of real crazy people too. Partying together. KTV-ing together. Dinner together. Thank you for helping to burn hole in my pocket! LOL!
So, my 2010 is really filled with lots of good people and a few lousy people. I should be glad that I have such great people around me..
Will my 2011 be just as interesting? You will know in 2012 when I blog about my 2011!!! =x
I no longer find the motivation to blog anymore. Each time i login to wordpress, I will just close it. Damn it!
I shall blog about my 2010 and my 2011 okay! Stay tune!
MUAHAHAHAHA!
Damn! Yes. The day is coming. The day that marks the start of my last year before I step into mid-20s! OH FML TTM!
I am disappointed in you.
If by showing care & concern to a friend who hasn’t been like in his/her proper self, means crazy. Then I guess, I am just being crazy for showing care & concern for you.
Perhaps I don’t know you well enough. Considering the fact that we are only friends like a month or a bit more than a month?!
But the feeling you gave is you are just not your usual self for the past few days or week.
And you really make me feel so lousy about myself. As a friend. Like a lousy friend. That showing care & concern to you is like a crazy act.
I questioned myself a lot of times, why do I have to care so much for friends. To the extend that I would rather scold them upside down when they are not treating themselves right. I guess Jiaxin would agree on this, right? To the extend that I would rather get scolded by people just to stand out for my friends.
Sometimes I might look like I don’t care a shit about anything and use the most heartless & harsh words on friends. But, they are used to push them to be better.
Perhaps, this is the reason why I hate it to be too close with friends.
Perhaps, this is the time that I should just shut myself from friends.
Sometimes, I asked myself..
How much can a person cry before the tears dry up…
I guess, after I get to really cry my heart out…
But, I couldn’t….
I am seriously confused on what I want.
I do not know what I want.
I am thinking..
Argh. So many questions…
After much consideration, I still do not know what to do.
I HATE THIS FEELING!
One thing to be happy. 4days without thinking stick. Good job!
Can I pretend like nothing have happened?
No I Can’t
Can I just try and erase all the memories I had?
No I Can’t
How I wish I can do a Ctrl + Z in my life.
But people always say..
Never look back in the past.
I hate to put on a mask and be nice to everybody I see.
I hate to put up a strong front and show people that I am alright.
I hate to tell people that I am Okay but in fact I am totally not Okay.
Can we pretend that airplanes In the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now Wish right now, wish right now
Told myself I got to end it.
Told myself I got to move on.
Told myself I got to quit it.
Told myself I got to be strong.
That’s me. Victoria Natasha. Goodbye!
❤
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