the impossible
I am sorry, but this is a sad post again.
For the past few months, I went thru a roller coaster ride. Everything in my life is changing from in control to out of control.
Feelings.
I am seriously out of my mind to entirely let lose my feelings. I felt so lost when I am left alone to deal with it just because I do not know how to start talking about it. Reason being nobody knew about it until I say it out. I never know how to deal with my feelings in the proper way after keeping in deep after so long. This time round, I fell hard again like months ago. Because of what happen months ago, I am scared to make known my feelings clearly to anybody. Maybe, I should just keep it deeper or even just forget about it. It is a total mistake to even have any feelings for him.
Perhaps it is just becoming a habit for the both of us. To talk, To hangout. Like a drug.
Health.
It sucks to the max. Seriously, I rather it be some terminal illness and I can just die the next day. This way, I would not need to suffer. Neither do I need to worry about any other things.
My head is exploding. I can’t write any more. Goodbye.
How I wish, my head would explode just like a grenade and I can really say goodbye…
