Like what I’ve mentioned previously, YES, I’m back to SINGLEHOOD again. Some might have already know why. As for others, I will tell YOU if I wanna tell YOU. So kindly dont pester me on WHY! Just take the reason as WE DRIFTED APART. Thou this is partly of the reason but I prefer to keep it or just treat it as I’m being selfish.
So much things have been happening. Break-ups and Attached. Sometimes, if really makes me wonder. If you know that the relationship will never work out in the end, what’s the point of trying out in the first place. Or rather I personally feel that intamacy should be keep away if you need to “try out” first. Some may say that I’m being so heartless for ending the relationship as I see no future in it. But whats the point of holding on to it when both party are tired.
Alot of times, I keep asking myself. What do I really want in life, relationship and whatever areas in my life? Untill now, I still cant find any reason to it…. Other than concentratin in my studies, and be more spiritual. I seriously dont know what I want in life.
My relationship with my Mum haven’t had any improvement. Or rather. It have became worse. I really hate myself for doing so much irritating things that irritate her. But, I still cant help but feel lousy. The insults and threats I got from her have really gone to a level that I really cant help but to start having negative thoughts. I know it shouldnt be this way.
Whatever that had happen or going to happen, I shall believe that I can brave through everything. All I need is really the faith and trust needed for HIM. HE had really never failed me in any stages of my life. Even thru this period of time, He gave me hopes and opportunities. I truely pray with all my heart that this will be a simple and easy way to go thru all the situations I’m currenly in now.
And also, I am seriously considering about something. Something that I’ve told myself before I got attached previously. 240907 shall be the date it starts. 071208 shall be the date it ends. And I truely believe by then I will know what I really want for my relationship and life…..
