Unknowingly, I actually love to blog about emo stuffs. Perhaps it actually helps me to express out my uttermost inner feelings. However, I’m always in a dilemma on whether not to about everything. Hence, everything is kept unknown in my darkest corner of my heart.
Relationship
Being together for almost 7mths now isnt an easy thing. Forgiveness and high tolerance level are both needed in the 2 of us. There are times when both of us totally cannot cross over the barrier of forgiveness, or even have higher tolerance level on each other. Thus, quarrels are really inevitable. So many times, I actually want to give up. But yet, I hold on strongly. Believing that this is never the end of the 2 of us. Time after time, I actually hug my cow stuffed toy so tightly and cried. Talking to the cow stuffed toy is what I always do. It is now already soaked with all my pathetic tears. But there is nothing I can do coz all I know is juz CRY. Lousy ME…. BOO!!!!
Work
Working @ HV Coffeeclub is the happiest thing that happen to me for the past 1year. Found quite a few good friends there. However, more and more are leaving for GOOD. argh. Now, there are more and more problems. Mainly caused by the INDIAN BITCH! Damn Shit. She is causing all the unhappiness of most of us. Forget it. I dont want to waste time blogging about her. But, 1 happy thing to mention is Xinjie is also workin there. 1more khaki with me to bitch around.
Cell Group
This friday shld be the last cell grp for w84. I shld be happy. Because this is a day that I have waited for so LONG. However, a thought of leaving is more powerful now. I start to detest on the behaviours of ppl. Being “fake” and “caring” coz their ultimate aim is just to grow the cell group quantity. Perhaps, I shld really think about where I shld go and what I shld do….. DAMN!
Family
I hate it when she ask why issit that we cant communicate properly. Perhaps she shld think why instead of asking me. The words that came out from her mouth whenever she is scolding me is enough for a weakling to end her life. “All because of YOU!! every year of CNY is so unlucky. Ever since YOU are born into this family, there isnt a time of peace during CNY!!!” Perhaps you do hear these comments in drama sitcoms. However, all these actually words that comes out from the mouth of somebody that is asking me WHY ISSIT SO DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO COMMUNICATE WITH ME? I believe in words of affirmation, my first language of LOVE. Thus, I dont think i shld be answering that idiotic question on communication. The subject on favourtism is so well taught in here too. New laptop, bag, shoes, handphones, etc.. all goes to that pet of yours. When I say, I had enough, I really mean that I had enough of your rubbish!
Other rattlings are left for some other days.. =) bye.
