Singapore Polytechnic Parade of School.
seriously, if u aint in this u will definately not able to know how great this grp of ppl are!! im nw regrettin that i join this grp @ such a late time. but nevertheless, thank God i finally joined them this yr. and they have now become a big part in my life! indeed they are one of my greatest grp of friends. my 4Rs, Rubez, Regina, Ryan, Sharon. they are realli fantastiC!.. other den my 4Rs, of coz still gt others. they all meant alot to me. lolx!!!!
having said that. ive been neglecting my cg. but in me, i have some thoughts. told baobei that day. and she show me the verse that i sms her. Galatians 6:9. “And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.” tellin her nt to lose heart in the cell grp. seein the sms makes me feel like cryin. to be frank, i feel tired in the cg. efforts put in are always nt enuf and some seems like laggin behind when u wanna move on. but when u begin to lag on behind, they will all be rushin forward. it is jus like the cg aint flowin together. it isnt a good sign. suddenly thought abt what Regina once said, those who pray together flow together. indeed, everytime when we have conference prayer, it will be havin a few being unable to make it. sometimes, i cant help but think that it is each individual’s responsibility to make the extra effort to pray together. but i dont see that.
God, i realli pray that W84 will continue carryin the fire we had for You and let it burn like never before. i realli pray fo unity in the cell grp. let the cell grp be a cell grp that prays together and flows together…
moving on. i spent my this whole wk out till late. wed having practice. thurs, went to lavender and had dinner with Singyee, Jason, Siqi, Candice, Jeremiah and Ray. had nice chat. and something Siqi said striked me. she said something like.. “it is a talent given from God to RongPing being so sociable. being able to know so much abt ppl.” suddenly i thought abt this particular nite when im having conference prayer with Xiuli, Yuening, Esley, Justin. and God juz speak thru Xiuli to me. to be a Daniel in every where that i land upon. reachin out to the lost. and thinkin back to my days in secondary. bringing frenz actually become my weekly duty. and i love doin it. bring 10frens is like chicken feet for me. but nw. i have slack dwn and stop to reach out. i shld realli pray for wisdom and the anointin of the Holy Spirit to be upon me and start reachin out. and realli bringin in the lost to Him thru me.
had cell grp outing on friday. actually i dun call it an outing. more like a dinner ba. had V8. with Adrain, Junxiang, Esley-baobei, Xiuli, Yuening and Meifong. nice meal. walked ard. did nth much. went hme alone first. feelin veri tired. and Sharon, Rubez and Ryan went out without me and Regina.!!! lolx.. and they become the 2Rs.. lolx!!!!~
saturday is a day that i always look forward to. coz it is service. think wk healin svc. was late. Sarah veri angry. =x the presence is strong. and the healin power is all over the hall. and pst even speak the word and pray for those havin the pain in the mouth, toothache!!! lolx. and Sharon said. when pst said abt that.. she str8 away thinK abt me. lolx. but durin that time, i dun have the pain leh. lolx. had Cafe Cartel after svc with SP POS ppl. with Regina, Ryan, Sharon, Siqi, Singyee, Phileo and Emil. and our dearest Ryan, keep sayin that he is a PIG! ha!! it is so funny.
saturday is a day that i always look forward to. coz it is service. think wk healin svc. was late. Sarah veri angry. =x the presence is strong. and the healin power is all over the hall. and pst even speak the word and pray for those havin the pain in the mouth, toothache!!! lolx. and Sharon said. when pst said abt that.. she str8 away thinK abt me. lolx. but durin that time, i dun have the pain leh. lolx. had Cafe Cartel after svc with SP POS ppl. with Regina, Ryan, Sharon, Siqi, Singyee, Phileo and Emil. and our dearest Ryan, keep sayin that he is a PIG! ha!! it is so funny.
this is adapted by regina! lolx. i copy it from her blog.. lols. it is cute isnt it? lolx… and he oso said that his dad is a pig. and everyone are laughin till we realli cannot take it. i already laugh till my jaws veri pain. seriously dont understand why he keep proclaimin that he is a pig.! lolx!! went hme after tat. tireD!!!!!~
having a bad time at hme. mum being unhappy abt me hme late for the whole wk. dad is tryin to pick on whatever i do or say. stepped on something accidentally ystrday nite and it was stuck in my feet. and i gt a scoldin frm my dad for openin the door and nt closin it. my reason for doin it is coz i wanna pluck out the thing inside my foot coz i feel the pain and it is bleedin. but i gt scolded for being a selfish person. and they didnt even care abt my wound. though it is juz a tiny puny small wound. but to me. i felt so hurt. ever since my mum start working so many yrs ago. i had nv once gt much attention from her. and all the attention my parents gave are to my brother and my cousins. and i have grown to be so independent. being independent can be gd and bad at the same time. as for a gal. being too independent can make her look fierce and rough. ha! thats me isnt it. everybody can criticise or scold me or even insult me. but nt my parents and nt my loved ones. coz they mean alot to me and havin heard what they said juz pierce thru my heart. i cried myself to slp ystrday nite. i have been tryin to keep quiet and let them scold even when i knew it wasnt my fault. i have stop tryin to retailate whenever they scold or even start whackin me on my head. but all these are so hard for me to bear. sometimes i juz feel that the more i try to keep quiet. the more they try to make me feel bad abt myself. am i realli such a bad gal to them. havin totally no control of myself? yes. i do drink. i did went to club. but thats juz once. lolx. but to them, im juz like a small kid. with no self-limit. and i will one day turn out to be the most notorious problem maker of this society. but will i?! ha!. i will definately not!. but instead, i will be a powerful child of God!
enuf of this. got to go play o2jam. bye.
