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sorry

{ April 27, 2006 @ 12:14 pm } · { rubbish }
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oh my…
haven been blogging fer so long..
hee!!!
alot of things happen throughout these few days tat i nv blog..
i shall juz leave the details out..


firstly..
yes.
abt him.
its all over fer good.
or shld i say finally i made the correct decision.
but im still hopin that i will nt bump into him anywhere in de campus.
however. de more i dunwan it to happen.
de higher chance it is..
duhx..
was in sch fer 5days.
ard the EEE building for most of my time..
and yet i didnt see him..
went out on Sat..
and saw him on de train..
MRT is so LONG!!
and still..
bump into him in de same cabin…
what the hell…
seriously have no idea why in this world things liydat will happen…
i tried to hate him. but i cant.
however. i still have to thank him..
its him tat make me wake up frm my previous hurt.
and he also become de hurt nw.
nevertheless..
its all over nw.
and i think time will heal everything..
and indeed im gettin out of it slowly…
whatever..


anyway.
i gt back my wallet.
somebody mail back all my cards to SP..
but..
my cash, hp batt and wallet is gone..
aiya.. whatever la…


and oso what huh…
hmmm…
nth much leh..
wahahahhaa!!1
my life is so boring nw…
everyday online..
talk here talk there..
everynite talk on de phone…
oh no..
gonna be like those aunties who always talk le sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!
faint……
haa!! nvm…
bye bloggie…

im doin veri fine.

some pics. ha!!!!

{ April 18, 2006 @ 11:17 pm } · { rubbish }
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so long nv update le.
ya.
finish my itp.
finally.
i miss the place.
went back today.
but its no longer the usual place anymore.
i still dunlike that person there.
eeks.
attitude.
whatever it is.
its over.

new updates.
tat is.
my wallet is gone.
lost it once again.
stupid me.
its 150bucks worth.
someone pls kill me..
why so expensive huh!?!?!

wallet.3bucks
hybrid concession.97bucks
hp batt.20bucks
cash.30bucks
total=150bucks
makin new ezlin.21bucks
new admin card.10bucks
total=31bucks.
so i wasted in all 181 bucks!!!
blardy!!!~

went for 3 easter service.
i didnt expect myself to go for so many..
and served for 3 service too..
each time when it show Jesus being cruxified.
i weeped.
and i duneven dare to loOk..
and oso each time when He heal.
i cry.
ha!!
its the power of God.
the love He gave.
is realli unconditional..

anyway.. toOk neoprints with my “twin sister”
haa!!!~
Meifong and Aileen!!!
haa…
=)
MeiFong and ME!!!!Aileen and ME!!!

hee!!!
okok..
and i realise…
im always in that black and red shirt whenever i take neoprintS!!!
ha!!!!
dotx lo…
anyway..
nw is my zhilian time…
actingcute!!!ohmine!!!!

ok..
enuf~

seriously i duno what to do.
i have told u everything that i wanna say.
i already said out whatever its in me.
im gettin impatient.
i am tired.
take it or leave it.
i choose to take it.
but i think i have to leave it.
time will heal everything.

sch nw is so borin.
though im loOkin forward to lessons everyday.
skipped lesson today.
i knoe i shldnt be skippin.
but i skipped.
no more motivation!?
ha.
maybe.
boring.
sometimes im thinkin.
why am i wastin time still studyin.
haiz..
wastin time and money onli.
lousy.
bye.

25th April.

{ April 13, 2006 @ 1:10 am } · { rubbish }
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why this date?
coz its Jennifer’s bday.
who is Jennifer.
she is my primary sch fren.
a fren that leads me to all the activites in the community centre.
if nt coz of her.
i will not be so into chinese orchestra or music at all.
but.
i cant share all my happiness tat i have during my co practices with her anymore.
24th June 2001.
the day when she fall.
and left all of us crying.
the news tat left me crying outside my sch like nobody business..
i miss her.
sometimes i do wonder.
if she is still on this world..
what will have she become nw?
out frm her depression and aeronoxia?
and living a life tats so carefree?
or still suffering..
sometimes i wonder too..
what if i had too taken a wrong step and join her during my down times….
will i get to see her..
many a times i felt lead to.
but i didnt…
i miss her.
25th April 2006.
tats her bday.
i have not been to the garden of rememberance fer a long time to visit her.
perhaps i’ll wan to drop by on that day.
i will.
i want to.
i realli want to……..

realisin.

{ April 9, 2006 @ 3:14 am } · { rubbish }
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yes. i onli realise hw much effort have i put in and hw much feeling i have given out when my tears start rolling dwn even without me realisin it when im on de train today.
it have been the duno hw many times i cried.
yes. i sense scoldin frm uncle zelig comin again.
sorry.
i did say i am cuttin off contacts with him. but.. i didnt.
i shld have delete my maple acct right frm the start.
and i realli deleted it last nite.
maybe its juz anger at that pt of time.
frankly speakin.
i regretted.
nt juz my onli topic with him is cut off.
my effort put in is gone too..
im sorry.
the world is never fair i shld say.
pretty gals always have the brains and loOks.
but ugly ducklings will always be those tat gt despised.
dotx..

enuf of these stuffs.
let me coOL dwn first.
i hope tat im fine.
i think i juz nid a gd cry out.

my mum and dad are goin to Genting on the 23rd April.
dotx..
for 4days!!!
and its juz the 2 of them.
so romantic hor~
ha!!!!!~
tats a gd time fer me to sneak out and chill out with my fren too!!!
wahahahaha! =x

im still in a dilemma on whether shld i wrk part time @ Harbourfront Coffeeclub after my attachment anot.
well..
if my timetable is realli what is being shown in the system..
think i definately will go work.
and i will wanna work alot.
coz i realli nid money.
my expenses is gettin higher and higher.
the taxi trips that i take..
oh man.
is realli too taxin fer me.

work is fine today.
except fer the same old usual ppl tryin to piss me off.
i had enuf.
vulgarites.
yaya.
spout in on me 1 of them. and i make sure i return u tons of them.
u are juz a foreigner in my country.
what are u tryin to do.
idiot.
and backstabbin is gettin frm bad to worse.
ppl’s attitude change.
heLLO!
its blardy obvious.
u, backstabber.
always the one who is tryin to spoil everything.
pissed off.

updates

{ April 8, 2006 @ 2:28 am } · { rubbish }
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wrk as usual. boring.
pissed.
with different ppl.
ok.
i have attitude problems.
get lost.
nth much to update.
everyday oso the same.
not much of difference.
frenz to me realli.
i think means nth.
they can say that im their veri gd frenz.
and yet backstab u.
and hurt u.
im tired of all the lies.
everytime a lie is needed to cover up fer another.
and lies are jus something that tries and make a situation better.
but..
in actual fact.
it onli make the situation worse.
i choose to give up.
i decided to take the route that i have once chose.
but..
will that realli be my finally decision.
will there be factors that is stoppin me again.
i duno.
a feeling is felt and yet crushed.
all i feel is the streams thats gushin out..
nth is stoppin them..

jus an ugly duckling rattling away…

sucks

{ April 3, 2006 @ 10:30 pm } · { rubbish }
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i am hatin to go wrk more n more.
the supervisors there sucks like hell.
especially that 1 person.
realli so fed up.
totally pissed off.
yaya.
i noe u AOM.
veri big!
fark man..
im so pissed off till i black face the whole day and i juz keep doin things and dun care her.
first.
she come den give that face.
den i doin something den she ask me go eat in a so-rude attitude.
ok. fine.
so joey order food fer me.
den i continue do my things.
so she come and ask me in a fed-up attitude.
“rongping. u order ur food already anot!? go order ur food!”
hello..
im a human.
not a dog.
dun command me ard.
nxt.
ask her abt the schedule.
den she give that dunwanna entertain attitude.
pissed off.
the best part.
Azman ask us when free read the new SOP for bar..
so i tat time free..
den i want read.
and she scolded me..
“eh Rongping! u wan read. read during ur break nt nw!”
im already lost for words.
lazy to fight back.
so i keep.
den she scold me again.
“why u keep there!”
fine..
i keep back original place.
den after tat Azman come back..
“eh.ppl. u all read the new SOP already anot.. read it when u free..”
den so Jieying ask fer it..
we read it together.
den saw smething we wanna clarify..
ask Ishak abt it.
den damn that woman..
“eh rongping! why u read so long.!? finish reading already anot! read finish dont keep talkin!”
dotx..
hello..
bitatch.
im juz clarifyin my doubtS!
better den i do things wrong let u scold rite!
blardy.
tat day.
im so pissed off.
in my heart im screaming.
why is this so unfair.
nobody teach me on hw shld i do floor.
nobody teach me which is which.
i dun even know a single thing.
what to set for each meal.
nobody cares to tell me at all..
when i ask.
“eh.. what to set huh?!”
i gt asked back..
“what do u set fer that den!?”
kaoz.
i hate that man.
either u ans my qns or jolly well ignore it and let me find out myself!
dun give me those fark up attitude.
and why am i so angry.
why i say its so unfair.
coz when Nyoman was asked to go to the floor..
he was taught everything in detail!
but im not.
what the hell is this!!!~
i had enuf.
im so pissed off till i almost cry.
yaya..
strange rite..
whenever im veri angry..
i will cry..
and so i juz go inside de bar.
take the sanitizer.
go and wipe all the chairs..
think i already kana scold till i out of my mind.
sooner or later i will become a retarded!
damn u biatch!