DAMN!!!
I BLOGGED FER A DAMN LONG HOURS AND MY MUM SIMPLY JUZ OFF MY MORDEM!!!~
ARGh!!!
I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!~
ALREADY SO PISSED BY WHAT I SEE TODAY..
AND SHE WANNA BE THE 4TH!!!
I HATE ALL THESE UGLY CREATURES!!!!~
SCRAM!!!
GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!!!
Archive for June, 2005
PISSED
updates
have not been updating this whole wk..
haha!!
sorry….
nothing much happen though..
on monday finish clz earli..
den went SAA rotx again..
actually meetin Yuxing go play pool..
but in de end never…
den so went hme after that lo….
nth much oso..
den tuesday…
lesson all de way 8am-3pm..
after that go saa rotx…
waited for Yuxing to finish her stuffs…
den she came over..
rotx till 5plux..
den accompany her go JP..
she went watch Batman Begins alone lo..
haha!!
power!!!
den i go hme rots again..
on wed…
suppose to meet Yuxing at 8am to go SAA discuss tutorial..
in de end both of us overslept..
i reached sch at ard 9am..
she onli reached at 10am lo..
den after that went fer lesson lo..
first time goin fer wed tutorial lesson..
hahaha!!
after that went back SAA rotx…
den go fer pract..
once again i nv pract much..
it suckS!!!~
argh!!!
den after that entertain de yr1s till 615pm..
den go makan…
was late fer combined prac..
argh!!!!
wat de heck..
finish prac at ard 10pm..
went hme….
too tired..
onli managed to memorise animal cells and plant cells..
coz next day got microbio test…
on thursday..
skip de first lesson..
went SAA study finish my microbio..
study till i fell aslp..
after tat went fer microbio lesson…
so pissed off by de buddy clz gals..
argH!! so de noisy..
and talk so much..
and talk so loud oso…
argh!!!
den went off str8 after lesson..
den go find my clz ppl..
after tat go fer practical..
2 practical in a row…
after that went to take my microbio test..
kind of easy…
hope that can score gd marks..
den after tat went CO rm rot till 730pm..
den go fer cell grp..
went hme aftertat…
on friday….
wake up at 11am..
den rot till 1plus den go sch…
de lesson frm 3pm-4pm is cancelled..
so in de end onli have lesson frm 4pm-5pm…
what de…
went SAA rot…
den when suppose to go lesson..
i nv…
coz juz happen Mr David came up and talk to us…
den Yuxing nv go lesson..
and i am too lazy to go..
so in de end skip la..
den went back CO rm after that..
den Angel n Leng had “cat fight”
laugh until i pengx…
haha!!!
den after tat go makan at FC4..
den went to watch SE concert..
no comments…
den went clementi makan with them again..
den go hme…
rot till 4am den slp…
as for today…
wake up at 130pm..
den realise that i am late in meeting Szehui to pass her the key…
den manage to reach JE at 245pm..
waited fer her..
den Evelyn (CCK) was there le..
so i passed her de key first..
den i went hme..
rot till nw..
goin CO at 6pm..
den later meeting Wenhao go eat de Nasi Lemak..
already say wanna go eat fer a veri long time le..
but till nw den go eat…
hahaha!!!!~… nothing fer me to blog le..
sian sian sian…
i go rot….
24th June 2001
4yrs had past…
24th June 2001…
a day which i will never forget..
a day which i have so much regrets..
a day which i dun wish to be there…..
how i wish there is nv a 24thJune 2001…
i miss her…
Jennifer….
she had left us for 4 yrs..
realli hope that she is fine over at the other world…
gonex
felt a bit better after going out..
didnt know who to talk to about it oso..
and i dont feel like talkin abt it..
but i still wanna thank Szehui for talkin to me in msn…
console me…
thankz..
though i still feel rather upset…
but i think i will get over it soon ba..
ya…
*sorry if my previous post sound so negative….
i felt utterly depressed..
realli..
i just need somewhere to vent all my depression on….
i tear coz i need to cry all my sadness out..
is nt that i wan any sympathy..
i have nevr been so emotional before..
and i dun wan to be so emotional anymore..
weiling, harrison, lihua, samuel, xiuping, bowei…
thankz for telling me those things ystrday nite..
but i hope that u ppl can just give me some times…
however, i rather u ppl come to me juz alone..
within our own comm..
i dun wish other ppl, outside de comm..
or rather alumnis to actually talk so much about our problems that we have..
maybe coz they have a wider view..
coz they are outsiders..
but i still think all these shall be solved within ourselves…
ya….
tired of everything
juz woke up not long…
was veri tired..
extremely.
did nt slp last nite..
coz gt de FO camp..
later gonna go fer BBCO concert…
de FO camp…
7freshie came..
overall, i enjoyed..
but somethings juz seems to be unable to solve..
getting abit too emotional abt it..
perhaps it is juz a wrong choice having me there ba..
perhaps i am juz someone who is realli too useless, in a way ba..
whatever..
i am just a nobody..
i just want to be a nobody..
i nv want to be a somebody..
if i can go back to the past..
i realli will want to reject everything..
and just be gone forever from here.
meeting Angeline later at 345pm at bukit batok..
goin to concert with her..
just dont feel like bloggin anyway..
just feel like leaving everything behind..
perhaps it is time i shld close my blog..
at that moment in time, i juz feel like a fool…..
i always thought they are my angels..
but i think i am wrong..
if cryin is just to get some sympathy from them…
i rather dig out my eyes and stop every tears..
in my whole life,
i dun think i have gone thru so big an emotional barrier before…
perhaps what i have gone thru in my life are just peanuts to them…
but all these have change my life…
i can never be the same me again…
i am just like someone who have done so much wrong
and yet i wasnt given a chance to realise my mistake..
and i just cant get a chance to try and do what i can to pay back…
and i dun need any sympathy from anyone…
finally i realise, in this world…
i am the most stupid person ever in the whole universe..
perhaps if one day, i am goin to fall,
no one will ever bother to tear for me..
no one will ever remember who the fcuk it is lying inside that freaking rectangular wooden box…
ystrday
wed…
a day i dunwanna go thru nwadayz..
coz it is cca dayz..
and meaning i have to go CO..
it is nt that i dun like CO..
but sick and tired of everything that is happening..
whatever..
had FO camp briefing at 3pm..
quite glad that quite a lot ppl attend..
though some of them are nt coming.
but still glad that at least they come.
and again i didnt have my prac again…
i hate it..
having to do all these stuffs and being unable to pract..
whatever la….
had combined practice..
i basically dunwanna care anymore…
and juz sit dwn there at my place and take m zhongruan waited fer Layleng….
den had combined pract..
quite ok..
coz quite a few ppl came…
den after that we went to try de nite trail….
is extremely tiring!!!
a day i dunwanna go thru nwadayz..
coz it is cca dayz..
and meaning i have to go CO..
it is nt that i dun like CO..
but sick and tired of everything that is happening..
whatever..
had FO camp briefing at 3pm..
quite glad that quite a lot ppl attend..
though some of them are nt coming.
but still glad that at least they come.
and again i didnt have my prac again…
i hate it..
having to do all these stuffs and being unable to pract..
whatever la….
had combined practice..
i basically dunwanna care anymore…
and juz sit dwn there at my place and take m zhongruan waited fer Layleng….
den had combined pract..
quite ok..
coz quite a few ppl came…
den after that we went to try de nite trail….
is extremely tiring!!!
we tour ard de whole SP!!!
whOo!~haha!!!
but nt too scary la..
but i manage to scared Lihua by off-ing the staircase light..
and Harrison keep tapping Xiuping on de shoulder when we walk thru the long dark corridor of workshop3~
so funny…
after that went back CO rm..
had a feedback session fer de trail..
den after that went to try another place…
den went home le lo..
so tiring..
and in de end i skip today’s 8am 2-hour lecture, and 11am 1-hour tutorial…
haha!!
shall be going sch soon..
whOo~~
bye bloggie..
i still love u, bloggie~!~ haha!!!!
//perhaps, perhaps, perhaps//
sunday, monday, tuesday
on sunday..
went church early in de morning..
den went hme..
take my zhongruan..
met up with Xinjie to go for CO prac at SOKA…
boring till i wanna slp…
after that…
went home..
JackJack help me bring my zhongruan to SP~!!!
den i went hme..
a while later..
went out again….
went JE met Wenhao..
we went to watch Unleashed..
de movie quite nice~!
haa!!
de lead actress name is oso VICTORIA!!!!
haha!!~
den after watching went hme by 99
haiz..
gt 2 indians sit in front of us again..
wah lauz..
so smelly!!!@~
argH!~!~!
i hate that smell…
reach hme at ard 950pm…
den slp at ard 11pluz lo…..
monday…
went to sch..
had a veri tiring day..
lesson frm 8am till 530pm..
but practical ended earli at ard 4pm~ haha!!
den during de breaks went SAA be entertainment to them again..
but go there is get BULLIED by YE YIN ZHI 1 lo…
den after that..
had CO mtg…
2 ppl never come…
one of them come without informing…
what the..
haiz..
watever..
i dunwanna care anymore..
let it be..
den went hme at ard 8+pm..
reach hme 9+pm…
start doing the datasheet graph…
too tired to stay online..
den slp at 1145pm..
was so tired today..
was thinking nt to go fer de GEMS lesson..
but felt so bad..
coz i already skipped 1 time last wk..
and somemore i am one of those lucky ones that get to go to that clz..
so forced myself out of bed..
went fer lesson..
had a veri boring day today….
and sad oso..
coz i accidentally delete away a msg that i treasured so much..
was realli sad abt it……
but what done cannot be undone..
shall nt dwell on de what had happened…
den after lesson went to FC3 had lunch with Jialin..
had a nice chat with her..
love chatting with her too~
den after that go find my clz PTN..
coz she called me!!!
well…
coz i am nt taking the module that she is teaching lo…
so in de end she have to find me personally..
den after that go back SAA…
Angeline and Desmond were there too..
den Angel’s voice….
haha!
so sexy~!~
whOo!!haha!!!
den YINZHI, WEITECK, DESMOND…
gang up bully me..
Weiteck is also a part-time stuff there with Yinzhi lo…
he is so funny oso lo…
bring a portable radio there…
and bring hme everyday..
and he stuff that portable radio into his big sling bag!!!
haha!!
laugh till i mad…..
oh ya..
was sayin abt they bullying me….
especially that YINZHI…
mess up my hair, throw de sweet wrapper at me…….
that WEITECK and DESMOND!!!~
ask them help me throw de wrappers…
den they ask me open my mouth..
if nt den juz throw at me..
-_______-”~
big bully lo..
de DESMOND somemore still use rubber band to shoot me oso!!!
so de pain…
den waited fer them finish work..
went SAA..
saw MR David…
den had a talk with him n Miss Anna…
de rest of them waited fer me outside..
after that went JP had dinner..
on the way, thruout de whole outing today….
get bullied by Yinzhi..
he is another big bully lo…
so i bullied him by asking him carry my heavy bag~
hahaha!
den Angeline keep teaching us Teochew…
so lame lo..
we all were laughing so loudly n hard on de train lo..
hahaha!!
den watched Mr n Mrs Smith…
it is a veri veri veri nice show!!!
haha!!
quite lame at some parts..
but is realli nice!!!
2whole solid hours of show..
sit until my butt pain..
haha!!!
den de Weiteck n Yinzhi both veri funny…
Weiteck will have de habit of repeating the actor’s line..
den Yinzhi will sit until as if it is his hme..
haiyo…
after that went hme..
helped Jialin solved de problemshe encouter with excel..
den nw here i am blogging again le…
bye bloggie..
avril lavigne
oh man..
dont know why..
suddenly i am falling in love with….
AVRIL LAVIGNE!~!~!
she rockx!!!
haha!!
i am slow!!!
yeahyeah..
nw den realise that she is realli veri greaT!!!@~
whOo!~!~
i love her Nobody’s Home!!!!~
it is so nice!!!
oh my god!!!!~
i love de lyrics of that song!!!!
whOo!~~!
NOBODY’S HOME
I couldn’t tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn’t help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What’s wrong, what’s wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don’t know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody’s home.
It’s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You’ve been rejected, and now you can’t find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don’t know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody’s home.
It’s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can’t find.
She’s losing her mind.
She’s fallen behind.
She can’t find her place.
She’s losing her faith.
She’s fallen from grace.
She’s all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody’s home.
It’s where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She’s lost inside, lost inside…oh oh yeah
She’s lost inside, lost inside…oh oh yeah
thursday friday
thursday..
had a veri long day..
had 2 practical in a row…
but it is veri de fun lo..
haha!
first practical, my grp ppl are Jialin, Xueshi..
den 2nd 1 is with Desmond, Jialin, Xueshi..
haha!!!!
so funny during the 2nd practical..
as we were doin de same prac as Victor, Chunmei, Mengchoo….
we were competin who will finish first..
haha
but due to some funny things that Xueshi did….
we have to redo fer a few pH samples..
haha!
but we still finish first…
so fun..
haha!!!~
den went hme..
quickly bath le den go church for youth conference…
but i was too late..
in de end…
i could nt went in…
den have to go hme..
reach hme…
rot..
watch tv till halfway fell aslp…
den slp….
friday…
wake up at 11am…
den Jialin they all called..
coz they had practical in de morning..
den i dunhave..
we are suppose to go play pool again with de guys…
but in de end coz i still at hme..
den never go la…
haha!!!
den miss anna called..
ask me bring the costume to her office lo…
den went to sch…
den Samuel was in de co rm..
and he helped me bring over oso..
den after that went to find Yinzhi they all…
and i go there be their entertainment…..
what the…
haha!!!!
den after that went fer clz..
kind of boring…
haha!!
but fun oso la…
had grp discussion..
but we keep talking abt other stuffs…
den i got saboed by Victor’s grp of ppl to present my grp ans……
arbish!@~!~
get saboed by other grps to do my grp thingy…
wat de…
den de 2nd lesson keep drawing ard with Yuxing and Weizhong..
haha!!!~
after lesson…
went to co rm meet Lihua~..
ask her sign de office bearer..
finally!!!
den after tat go find Yinzhi n Samuel…
we went to Clementi fer dinner lo..
after that went hme…
was waiting fer 99..
den wenhao called..
he was in sch…aha!!
den asked me wait fer him to take 99..
den took 99 hme..
on de bus…
was so sian~ haha!!!
i wanted to watch de TV mobile..
but gt a guy and a lady sit infront of me..
block de whole TV!~
den i cant seE!!@!
den we have to tilt our head left n right to see de tv!
den after they go off…
a small boy sit infront again..
and block again..
haiyo…
den i keep yawning..
and that crazy Wenhao still go count..
in de end i yawn too much…
until he lost count..
and he bet that i will yawn again in 5more mins…
-______-”!~
in de end i lost la..
i yawn again..
hahaa!!!~
den after i went hme..
i realised that i am being locked outside hme la!!!
wahlauz!!!
coz i left my key at hme..
den my dad go CC sing ktv….
my mum working…
my brother go fren’s hse play..
my cousin duno go where oso..
den in de end…
rot outside hme…
den i decided to go find my dad get de key…
in de end he came hme open door for me~haha!!!!
reach hme..
rot ard…
did nth much……
was pestering Yinzhi on msn~haha!!!!!
lalalala!!!~
yaya..
he turned me into a craB@~!~ argh!~!
arbishbish..
today suppose to meet Harrison n Jonathan 1245pm at city hall..
go watch Pok’s performance..
but in de end.. Harrison eye swollen..
den cannot go..
in de end.. i slp till12noon den wake up..
haha!!!
until nw..
did nth much..
juz keep watching TV…
den saw de Superstar thingy…
so funny lo..
haha!!!
my mum ystrday ask me a veri funny qns suddenly…
“eh, girl!!! why u never go take parT!@!?~!”
den i was like… huh?! take part in what?!!~
den i blur blur went out of my room..
den saw de tv..
den realise she was talking abt de superstar thingy..
wah lauz!!@~
i suddenly almost faint..
so funny la..
ask me go join this…
haha!!!~
nt as if my voice damn nice…
and i am nt veri proud of my voice too..
argh~haha!!!
though that time actually was thinking to go oso la!!! haha!!!
coz Peile say wanna go..
but in de end never la..
haha~
so scary..
watever..
still find it so damn funny…
sian..
sian…
sian…
den later have to go my cousin’s hse..
coz my uncle’s bday la..
wah lauz..
another bloddy boring family gathering……
but this time shld be better..
think i still can find some entertainment there ba…..
haha!!!~
k la..
think i finish crapping le..
shall go rot somemore……..
*i wan go out!!!!* haha!!!
