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wednesday.. had lesson frm 8am-12noon.. den 3pm-5pm lo.. coz gt GEMs make-up lesson.. well… went 2 eat with Angie, Felisia, Yuxing, Huijie @ FC4 lo.. den Huijie went fer her GEMS.. de rest go do their project.. den i go co room pract n play lo.. nv join Hanee they all coz my ezlink wanna no money le.. coz they going Queensway lo.. haha!!! den after tat.. meet Yenmin n Shufen @ Vanda room @ 250pm fer GEMs lo.. den after tat went back 2 CO room.. den pract a while.. den go eat le lo.. den after tat gt combined pract… so tiring.. i am totally dreaming away lo… den halfway.. me n Eileen went 2 toilet lo.. den when we came out… saw Wormy.. den waited fer him n go back CO room lo.. den her happy meal, Kenneth came out… den we rot outside CO room a while le den went back 2 dance studio 2 pract.. practically is dreaming thruout lo..haha!! finish pract @ 945pm… so tired… den after tat went hme lo.. was tinking hw 2 do de RWP hmwk.. i have totally no idea wat izzit all abt.. den after trying fer almost an hour.. i fell aslp lo.. i am too tired le..



den nxt morning.. which is 2day… wake up late la.. ard 735am… den was thinkin of rushing 2 sch.. but den no mood.. so slowly take my time.. den when i board de train.. i realise i am veri veri veri veri veri de late le.. i onli board the train @ 810am lo and my lesson is @ 8am.. den thinking of this make me more sian.. so i decided 2 skip tat RWP lesson again.. n went Shuqun Sec meet Xinjie they all lo. .they helpin out fer performance fer de sec 1 cca orientation lo.. den i was suppose 2 help.. but i wore black t-shirt whereby they have 2 wear white.. so in de end.. nv lo.. den after tat.. waited fer them 2 finish..so i skipped another microbiology tutorial again…den waited n waited… but they onli finish by 1045am… den keep de stuffs n things liydat.. already 1055am le.. no pt fer me rushing back n get scolding frm my clz tutor.. so in de end.. skipped all my lessons 2day… den onli rush back fer my microbiology practical lo.. den after tat.. we left Shuqun @ ard 11am den walk 2 JE central eat lo. .den sit dwn there talk fer a long time lo.. den onli left at ard 130pm.. den i was late fer my prac.. ard 10mins late.. den after tat… went 2 FC3 with Yuxing, Felisia, Huijie 2 go meet Mengchoo n go SAA check out de helping out of de raising fund thingy lo..den after tat Feli n Huijie went off first.. den me n Yuxing n Mengchoo went 2 FC3 n makan.. den after tat went help out 2 pack de stuffs tat ppl donated fer the victims tat had suffered due to the diasasters lo.. den i gt veri tired again.. and i decided 2 leave by 7pm.. den reach hme.. nw… typing my blog.. realli tiring lo..



well.. tml gonna meet my bestie..!!! my bestie fer 14yrs???!!!haha!! oh man!!! my kindergarden 1 first ever known best fren!!haha!! sansan~~ argH~haha!! tml gonna meet her fer lunch~ so excited.. it have been so long since we last meet…!!! nt 2 mention have a lunch 2gtr..haha!! well~.. cant wait fer the time 2 pass as soon as possible!!haha!! lalalala!!!

Chinie is a typical college girl who enjoys life to the fullest. She loves her boyfriend so much and texts him every now and then.JM is Chinie’s boyfriend who works in a call center in Ortigas. He’s always busy doing so many things. He only manage to reply to Chinie’s texts when he got off from work.One time JM receive a message from Chinie:”hi baby! how r u? miss u! call me when u come home k?! tc! lovu!”JM ignored the message because he always receive the same message whenever it is time for him to go home from work.”baby,i miss u already! did u eat yet?! takecare when u go home! ill be w8ing 4 ur call.lovu!”"baby,where r u?! u’re not replying to my msg.well,ill b here w8ing for ur call! lovu!”JM reaches home and lay on his bed. The last time he knew is tha he’s reading Chinie’s text.He was so tired he fall asleep and wasn’t able to return Chinie’s call. He can still hear his phone beeps but he’s too tired to take a glimpse on the message.When he woke up the next day, he remember that he needs to call Chinie. He ignored the messages and dialed Chinie’s #. No one’s answering in he rhouse. He called up her cellphone and he was surprised that her father answered the call. In his voice you can feel his tears and hear his heart tearing apart.”JM,why’d u call just now? Chinie’s been waiting for u!”"Dad sorry.i was tired so i fell asleep.i called at home but no one answered.where are u now?.”"just wait for us at home”JM went to Chinie’s house and much to his surprised he saw a lot of people inside. The house were so lighted but you can see the gloom one very person you’ll meet there. He was greeted by Chinie’s mom on tears. She hug him tight and cried on his shoulders.”Chinie was waiting for u. she didnt go out with us coz she was waiting for ur call. she was killed las night by some robbers who came in here. she’s gone JM, she’s gone”"Ma,Chinie texted me last night..how could that have happened?!”JM can’t look who’s inside the coffin. He can’t move and it feels like his whole body is stucked on the chair his seating. He wanted to cry but it seems that something is blocking his tears to fall down. He turn to his phone and read the messages of Chinie.”baby, i’ll be w8ing for u to call. i wont go outwith dad anymore!”"baby, im scared. i think theres som1downstairs. pls call me already!”"baby, theyre here. wat if they kill me.pls call me. baby where r u? i need you here now. please baby i can hear them come…”"baby…. i love you!…”He wanted to shout and cry so loud. It’s true that Chinie is waiting for his call. Up to her last breath she only thinks about him.He stare at Chinie inside the coffin. Suddenly tears starts flowing down his cheeks. He can’t say anything. The only words he uttered…”My baby, i’m so sorry! I could have known, i could have fight for you! i’m really sorry! I love you so much!”

2day.. a soso day for me… well.. 2day had lesson at 10am.. den after tat break frm 12-1 den have lesson again all de way till 5pm.. den after tat went hme with Xueshi.. well.. 2day.. think nt much tings happen la.. but i duno why i juz have this sense of sadness n grief in me.. perharps is coz of de bad news tat was keep showing during de news? seeing all those ppl reported dead.. sumhw makes my eyes sore.. tears seems flowing duno why oso.. however.. realli pray tat those reported missing ppl will be soon found.. think tats all ba…



*u noe i simply cant forget u… u noe tat i have yet give up on u.. u noe i am always waiting fer u.. but why i seems like invisible 2 u… why… it hurts.. perhaps tat explains why lovehurts so much…*

2day suppose 2 go sch earli 2 do de RWP thingy.. but i overslept till cannot make it.. coz i simply cant slp de nite b4.. .i onli manage 2 fall aslp onli by 340am.. i duno why.. hmmm…ok.. den 2day wake up..realise i am veri late le.. so i quickly rush go sch lo.. den reach there.. still i am late fer lesson.. but is 5mins late onli la..haha! den kind of stone in de lesson.. simply cant concentrate..coz i veri tired.. den after tat go lab lesson.. de teacher is veri noisy lo.. den keep toking n complaining non stop… we finish de practical kind of veri earli lo… finished it at 1245pm.. den we proceed 2 fc1 and have lunch lo.. den halfway.. saw casper..wahaha!!! oops!! ok.. den oso saw titus… diaOz… den when walk pass casper.. they keep asking me ,”rongs~ why ur face so red huh!!!” den i was like.. so paiseh lo..wahaha!!! diaOz.. hey ppl.. i onli say he veri shuai onli ma~wahahaha!! okok.. den after tat went com lab.. den saw Salleh they all.. den they say de change of math lesson is being approved..so later no math lesson.. it will be change 2 Friday morning lo.. yeppiE!haha!! den after tat i rot at library use com lo.. den after tat go co room at 4pm.. den rot again.. den go makan with Layleng, Wormy, AhHeng… den halfway Pok-Jie came n join us lo.. den after tat go back.. start pract a while on our own.. den start cuming in n out.. play handphone.. use Layleng’s n Kaixian’s handphone send quite a few ringtones over 2 mine using bluetooth lo..~haha!!so nice~!!! whOo!! den after tat.. went back hme with Peile.. onli manage 2 reach hme at 10pm lo.. so tiring.. arGh.. den tml.. start lesson @ 10am.. so means i can slp longer.. haha!! but think tml end a bit late oso.. haha!!at 5pm..haiz.. sad.. ok.. think going soon le.. haha!!

*simply cant forget u…. hopes 2 be de 1 by ur side… *

whOo!! i am veri veri veri veri happy.. why?! haha! coz i gt a new fone!! yeppie!! well.. i gt myself.. de fone…. panasonic x70 lo.. it is so nice lo.haha!!.. okok.. well.. and oso.. i change my number le.. my new number is 97497901… ~ k.. think tats all.. bye!!!haha

well.. wanted 2 post tis fer veri long le.. but juz i have no time 2 type.. but before proceeding i wanna say is….

*~whoever is reading this.. sorry if i offended u…~*

okay.. first.. i wan 2 say abt.. wat?… ok.. i will say abt frenz ard me… yesh.. i realli have mani frenz ard me.. but sumtimes i feel tat i am a jerk.. why?~ coz i kind of neglect sum of my frenz.. why?~ coz i tend 2 get too busy with my orchestra thingy n sutffs.. which leads 2 mani times i onli realli hang out with certain grp out ppl.. tat explains why i prefer going co room den hanging our with clzmates.. ok.. i shall touch abt clzmates later…



secondly.. i am truely.. nt veri happy wat is happening nw.. i duno why.. say i am sensitive.. say i am jealous… or juz say tat i am a fake person.. ok.. i admit…. i truely duno hw 2 be a real gd fren… be there fer u whenever u need me? be there when onli u need a listening ear n yet i am nt listening 2 wat de heck u are tokin… n acting as if i care… ? or izzit listening 2 u complaining n yet i have no complains.. frankly speaking.. i am 1 who is selective at topics i wanna tok.. yesh.. i am a freak.. tats why i tend 2 have frenz tat will in de end hate me.. ok.. str8 2 de pt.. i am mean.. yesh i admit.. i am sum1 who tok real str8… i dun mind ppl tokin str8 into my face.. but i seriously cannot take it when it is frm sum1 i love or even sum 1 i respect… my tears juz cant seems 2 be control when i am being reprimanded by sum1 i love/respect… i admit i am a veri proud person.. ok.. so?~ i am proud of myself….. u mean i cant be proud of myself? maybe coz i am over confidence abt myself.. ok.. i dun care… n i dunwan 2 care… seriously.. i admit.. i blocked a few frenz frm msn.. why?! coz i sumtimes realli dun feel like toking 2 a few… which cause me 2 do this..



next.. let me talk abt my church frenz.. yesh i admit.. they are real gd ppl.. but sumtimes i wonder.. are they nice 2 me coz they have 2? coz they have 2 obey de commandments of God.. i have always acting nice 2 sum1 but yet in my heart.. i am so disgusted by tat person n myself… why?! *if u are my cgm n reading this.. i wanna apologise u 2 all first… * sumtimes.. i feel so fake.. in me.. i am realli.. thinking of leaving church.. nt tat i dun love God.. i do love Him… i dun deny tat He is realli a faithful God.. but i feel tired… going 2 church n cell grp wks aftr wks n yet i seems so dead.. be it praying or bible readin.. i am nt veri faithful doing it.. i duno.. and i have alot of other commitments n nw.. persecution frm my parents… fer commitments… i have my sch.. i have spco.. i have my co outside… these 3 things.. i admit… is sumtings tat i will nv ever let go… they are my dreams… be a chemist.. be sum1 who can excel in co.. be a professional player in co… i am lost.. dun ask me why.. i realli duno… dun tok 2me abt this.. i simply dunwan 2 discuss this issue with anibody… i am juz saying out juz 2 release my anger n tinkings…. be it u are my cgm or christian frenz… i know.. a few of u are reading my blog… treat it as u duno it… i hate it when sum1 read my blog n start go ard telling ppl things n start scolding me when u dun even know exactly hw i feel..!!! why have i becum so worldly? i simply duno.. perharps is de temptation.. perharps is de things tat i cant let go off.. so whoever reading.. pls understand wat i am trying 2 explain!!!



nw.. abt my clz.. i have mentioned b4.. i have a few close frenz in clz.. ppl like Felisia, Angie, YuXing, Huijie.. de 5 of us are always 2gtr… but.. things started changing when i start 2 drift away when things turn sour between me n Yuxing tat time after de clz thingy.. though nw all de things are cleared.. but i have realise.. de frenship between de 5of us is gone… i simply cant seems 2 click with them.. why?~ maybe coz of de topics tat they tok.. i simply cant get myself interested in.. fer Yuxing.. although i can see tat she is realli trying veri hard 2 be nice n realli share her stuffs with me.. but still i feel tat gap between de 2 of us.. i simply duno why… izzit tat i have this barrel in my heart coz of wat have happen b4? i duno.. nw in clz.. i have nt been with de 4 of them animore.. it is like as if we had a veri big fight b4.. i dun deny.. i have sum dislikes abt Angie’s n Huijie’s attitude.. but still they are my frenz.. wat can i do.. ok.. den nw.. seeing the 4 of them so close 2each other.. de jealously in me seems 2 grow.. i duno why… perharps it is man’s nature.. i duno..*yuxing.. i know u are reading my blog… so wanna apologise 2 u first* ok.. den though nw i am hanging out more with Ruru they all.. but still i feel tat me.. i am juz so fake.. unable 2 click with the previous ppl le… den cum n click 2 another grp… i realli feel so fake in me lo… this explains why i seems so unhappy n yet i am putting up a smiley face… i hate de fake me.. that freaking disgusting feeling is back lo.. i hate tat…..

well.. i think i enjoy myself 2day la..haha!! though a bit boring but still i enjoy.. de onli regret is.. Jie is nt there…sOb!!!well.. coz she gt performance… well.. it has already becum a routine fer me 2 countdown my Christmas n New Yr eve with her… this year.. nth change..~ we countdown 2gtr again..haha!!



well.. ystrday… went 2 Singapore Indoor Stadium fer church service… well shall nt elaborate abt it… er… kind of tired n fed up.. but suan le.. ok.. my fault fer being late… ok.. stop!! den after service.. i went off 2 meet Aileen n went back.. she dropped off at Jurong East 2 go meet her fren go watch movie.. den i went str8 hme 2 put my bag n went out again 2 meet Jie… den we went 2 community centre n check it out whether ani interesting countdwn.. but 2 our disappointment.. there isnt ani.. well.. so we decide 2 walk 2 JurongPoint.. which is like so far..haha!!ard 30-40mins walk lo.. so we walk.. halfway… is like already 1 more bus stop..den we will reach le.. den we decided 2 go my hse n play computeR!!haha… den went back my hse.. den my mum ask her 2 stay overnite lo.. coz is so late le.. even though she live veri near.. but still nt safe fer de 2 of us lo.. coz i was tinking of sending her back 2 her hse if she wanna go hme…haha!!



ok.. u all may wonder..why muz i send her hme… haha!! coz.. she is still xiao meimei~haha!! no la.. she ar.. 3yrs younger lo..same age as my younger brother.. unbelievable~ haha!! but duno why we click so well..haha!! n yet me n her elder sister is like water n fire?!haha!!!

den after tat… my dad cum in.. ask her 2 stay oso..haha!! den she stayed lo.. den she sit at my brother’s table…which is side by side 2 mine… den using my brother’s laptop.. online.. msn chat with me… n Yikloong.. lame rite?~haha!! sitting beside me n yet chatting with me… ONLINE!!!haha! den play till 3am.. we start 2 feel tired le.. so decided 2 slp..den wake up at 6am.. send her back hme.. den i went back n slp again…



den was suppose 2 meet her 915am..but i was late.. i overslept.. she called @ 920am n i am still slping like a pig…haha!! den after tat she cum up 2 my hse..den waited fer me while i go prepare..haha!! den we took cab over 2 practice lo.. when get into de cab… de fare is $3.40… when alighting.. de fare is still $3.40.. so can u all imagine hw near it is?~haha!! n yet de 2 of us lazy 2 walk.. coz it is so hot n i was de 1 who is late.. so i decide 2 pay la..haha!!



den after tat reach there… practice haben start.. den de Soka ppl still chanting.. diaOz.. so scary… den after tat teacher came.. den we tried 2 psycho Jie 2 nt go her CO performance n instead go 2 teacher’s hse have christmas meal~..haha! but in de end she decide 2 go lo..



den after practice.. me, James, Lihua, Jason, Mingkwang took teacher’s car back 2 his hse.. den went 2 his hse n play lo.. den we onli left at 630pm..



den reach hme.. went 2 Pioneer mall with my parents.. den wanted 2 buy a new handphone lo.. coz i saw in newspaper.. panasonic X70 selling at de price of $48 onli lo.. provided signing up a new line lo..den i was like so happy… den called my dad.. den my mum agree 2 let me have it lo… first time.. telling her abt this kind of thing n she agree let me have it.. den so happy tat time.. den went there.. see… dunhave!!!! coz my daddi say try n check whether starhub gt anot.. den dunhave… den try singtel.. they say no more tat fone.. den i was like… why!!! den i so sad..nearly cry.. haiz.. den suan le.. den my daddi say tml go westmall see whether got anot lo.. coz there gt M1 shop…haiz.. realli wish fer a new fone la… till nw.. i have yet 2 have a real new fone tat belongs to me lo.. took my Starhub line fer like 2yrs plus le.. i onli have a fone of my own.. Nokia 3315.. haiz.. so lame lo.. i am craving fer a fone!!! argH.. den nw was tinking.. either i take M1 tat line with panasonic X70 onli $48bucks… or i am going 2 buy a 2nd-hand panasonic GD88 without line @ $250 lo.. haiz.. shall see hw…. *gone*

ok.. i am back 2 update my blog.. ok.. when shld i start…. let me slowly think…

well.. ok.. on tuesday… yah i skip CPPB lesson.. i was coughing like mad lo… haha!! den when i reach maths clz.. i cough like siao fer like almost 5imns lo.. haha!! den after tat is microbiology lesson. den after lesson.. i was thinkin of going dwn 2 ACS (B) 2 meet Jie they all.. den go there look look see see lo.. haha!! but they already on their way back.. so i decided 2 go hme.. but halfway… at mac.. i saw Szehui lo.. den she aks me whether wanna go CO room anot lo.. so decided 2 juz pop by n rot lo… den rot away.. de few of them wanna go Bugis 2 settle publication thingy.. den i have 2 meet Jie 2 accompany her 2 take erhu.. so i decided 2 go hme n nt join them fer bugis trip lo.. coz oso i nt feeling veri well le lo.. den after tat went back hme… went 2 buy my dinner le lo… den after tat went hme.. online… den Jie sms me no need go take erhu lo.. so i rest at hme lo… den halfway.. i start feeling veri terrible lo.. so i called my mum n decide 2 go see a doctor lo.. den de doctor was tinking of giving my MC.. but… i did a stupid thing by declining de need of it!!! aint me stupid!! haha!! so went hme.. have de medicine.. den slp…



den on wed…reach sch.. den lesson.. so tiring lo.. and i fell aslp lo..haha!!!den after lesson.. went 2 fc3 n eat.. den go co room rot a while lo.. den meet Jie n Sinyi @ Dover mrt… den went 2 Newton meet James, Lihua, Yikloong, Jason, Mingkwang, Yujun, Franky, Xinlin lo.. den went 2 ACS (B) den rot again.. wat de… den performance n everyting lo.. den my instrument so heavy… so i bully Yikloong n James.. ask them help me carry lo.. den after that we went 2 Marina Bay n have our dinner lo.. n everyting.. onli manage 2 reach hme by 11pm lo.. kaoz..



den on Thurs pon tan agian lo.. pon de morning lesson.. Report Writing & Presentation.. tat lesson… onli play com lo.. so i decide 2 have more slp.. den went 2 sch.. late fer Microbiology lesson.. onli reach @ 1045am whereby de lesson ends @ 11am.. wat de.. in de end.. nv go.. den went 2 IOCHEM… de teacher realli.. he is a wanna-be mr nice guy.. but hew fails.. he is as naggy as de naggiest mum ever in this universe lo.. haha!! den after lesson.. den went makan.. den went2 help Lingling test here food lo.. err… okok lo.. den saw a lot of ppl frm co lo.. haha!! den de clz ppl… nt use 2 them calling me VICTORIA!!!hahaha!!! okok.. den saw Desmond daddi again.. so sway lo.. everytime will see him 1~ haha!!! den after tat go practical.. so fun.. den me n Xueshi brought our crystal back hme SECRETLY!!!haha!! den after tat went co room again n slack.. den i start playing de PAIGU fer FenYongQianJing lo.. hahaa!! den teach Desmond n Peicheng~ haha!! i sound pro.. but i am nt la!!! haha!!!den after tat went off 2 meet Jie again 2 go watch performance @ ToaPayoh HDB HUB lo.. den meet James, Yikloong, Jason, Lihua.. den went makan.. den after tat meet MingKwang lo.. den after tat went hme lo.. haha!! i lazy 2 elaborate wat happen during performance~haha!! Jie will kana maluated again.. haha!! =X ok.. think tats all le la..!!! veri long posting agian le.. sure a lot of ppl wanna complain le..!!! haha!!! nw is already 1147am lo.. blog fer 26mins lo..haha!! okok. bye!!! aniway.. hereby i wanna wish all de ppl….

well..i am tired… arGh!! so veri lazy 2 blog… on 22nd gt performance… den 2day went 2 watch a peformance… den both days.. 11pm den reach hme.. hai… tml still got lesson..den summore still need do project.. den still have 2 go indoor stadium… i have enuf…arGh!! tired.. haha!! den sat morning still gt co practice… den go teacher’s hse… den sunday… co prac again..haha!! argh!! i am veri tired!! argH~~haha!! ok i shall not complain~